Flair = that X-factor

i need flair.

watched Carmen (1983) today, by Carlos Saura, which is a flamenco version of the play. I LOVED IT! seeing the passion with which Antonio Gades, Laura Del Sol and Cristina Hoyos danced, i just was so enchanted by it all! and as i was watching it, i realised what they had that made them stand out. it was flair. as the three stood in the midst of the group of dancers, you just wanted to watch them because there was a magical quality about them. every flourish of the hand, every stomp and pick-up, every flick of the head just screamed "voila!".

i remember reading a dance story when i was younger about a girl called Tashi who envied another dancer in class because she had flair and wondered why she herself didnt have flair. i sometimes feel like her. i think i am not too bad a dancer and i pick up steps quite fast but i wonder if i have that star quality that when i dance people just want to watch me. there is a vast difference between being a good dancer and a great dancer. was thinking about tap show rehearsals the other day and watching Nikki perform (she is like in everything! jazz, ballet, tap, urban jazz funk, streetvibe), she was just so amazing to watch. your eye just followed her and she lit up the stage. every look thrown at the audience, every flick of the head. she is a showstopper.

i wish i had flair. it isnt something you can work at. i think it is something you discover within yourself. something that is just there or isnt. do i have it? it doesnt seem so but you know what? i am just going to keep dancing my heart out. let the steps just be part of me, like i HAVE to dance to live, to feel alive! that's the only way one can really perform...