God's love

have you ever suddenly realised that you have been living in a bubble? or more likely, decide to face the truth that you are? it seems like i am clinging on to a rosy picture i want to have and in gripping to it, i tell myself to hang in there because i will ultimately be rewarded for my patience. so much time has been invested - why give up so easily? know how sometimes you say, "God's will be done" but in actuality you are striving to make God's will conform to yours? or at least delude yourself that you are following it?

God's love is perfect and it never fails. The fact that we can never truly measure how vast His love is comforts me because i know i'll never be disappointed. And He is the same yesterday, today and forever. i will never not be loved, or loved any less. "Nothing you can do can make Him love you more/And nothing that you've done can make Him close the door". i dont need to earn His love neither can i be separated from His love.

if you have a butterfly in your hand and you try so hard to hold onto it, you end up crushing it. perhaps that is why God gave us choice - to choose Him or not to. because how can love be true love if it is forced? He cannot cling on to us because we will end up broken. i feel broken by life's experience and all i want to do now is to reach out my hands and let my Father carry me on His shoulders. i just want to be a small child again, helpless but strong because my Father takes care of me. disillusionment brings about low self-worth but somehow everything is ok with Him because i am in Christ.