my love/hate relationship with university life
over the last few weeks i've been feeling pretty urgh about being a university student (yes, i'm supposed to be articulate but urgh is pretty much the most apt word i can think of to express my emotions). dont get me wrong - i love studying and learning new things. i love reading about things beyond the textbook which is why i enjoy research for essays. i love going to class and finding out something totally revelational and using that information to enhance my understanding of what i already know. i love going to class and voicing my opinion and hearing what others think as well.
now the thing is, what i cant stand about university life (or at least life as a university student in the UK) are essays. give me a presentation or a project anyday and i will gladly do it. i wish i could answer the essay questions in verbal form and be assessed for it rather than having to write it out. i dont know why this is so, but i find it so difficult to put my thoughts into coherent setences when i write an essay. i can write essay plans for them and draw arrows to link this with that and that with this but when you ask me to write it into something academic, i'm afraid i get all tongue-tied (on paper). i really shouldnt have this problem considering how i find writing a GP or history essay perfectly ok. But when it comes to writing a film essay or a literature essay, i seem to not be able to put what is on my mind into words. which sucks because i am a film and literature student. go figure.
yet when i get the inspiration i'm able to write in a flurry. and it always seems that at the end of the whole ordeal, i end on somewhat of an essay high and think, ok that wasnt so bad! next one please! but until i get to the end, there is always a sense of dread about my essays.
i think i'm not suited for the academic life. or perhaps i would have faired better if i went to a uni that had other forms of assessment. i wont even start on how much effort/headache writing an essay in the exams takes/causes.
i just want to get out of uni now and start working! i know that perhaps next year i might sing a different song and say how much i dont want to leave uni and how i wish to stay blissfully as a student but for now (and i think this will probably stay till next year) i just feel like i need to get out of this stiffling environment and start work. the thing about working is that when you are, you feel like you are not being intellectually stimulated (unless you are doing a job that you really love and learn/do something new every day). but once you work (eg over the holidays) and go back to uni, it feels like regression. GARGH!
and considering i wrote all this in 5 minutes, i wish my essays could flow like this.
BAH HAMBUG.
now the thing is, what i cant stand about university life (or at least life as a university student in the UK) are essays. give me a presentation or a project anyday and i will gladly do it. i wish i could answer the essay questions in verbal form and be assessed for it rather than having to write it out. i dont know why this is so, but i find it so difficult to put my thoughts into coherent setences when i write an essay. i can write essay plans for them and draw arrows to link this with that and that with this but when you ask me to write it into something academic, i'm afraid i get all tongue-tied (on paper). i really shouldnt have this problem considering how i find writing a GP or history essay perfectly ok. But when it comes to writing a film essay or a literature essay, i seem to not be able to put what is on my mind into words. which sucks because i am a film and literature student. go figure.
yet when i get the inspiration i'm able to write in a flurry. and it always seems that at the end of the whole ordeal, i end on somewhat of an essay high and think, ok that wasnt so bad! next one please! but until i get to the end, there is always a sense of dread about my essays.
i think i'm not suited for the academic life. or perhaps i would have faired better if i went to a uni that had other forms of assessment. i wont even start on how much effort/headache writing an essay in the exams takes/causes.
i just want to get out of uni now and start working! i know that perhaps next year i might sing a different song and say how much i dont want to leave uni and how i wish to stay blissfully as a student but for now (and i think this will probably stay till next year) i just feel like i need to get out of this stiffling environment and start work. the thing about working is that when you are, you feel like you are not being intellectually stimulated (unless you are doing a job that you really love and learn/do something new every day). but once you work (eg over the holidays) and go back to uni, it feels like regression. GARGH!
and considering i wrote all this in 5 minutes, i wish my essays could flow like this.
BAH HAMBUG.
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