stuck in limbo

it sure feels like it - everyone has gone home and in a way i like living in the UK but some part of me misses Singapore though i know that a lot of the fun plans i have will have to wait till Moon gets back from UCLA. and my on-off frustration with flying is back again.

and everyone seems to be doing an internship - which i should point out is vastly different from working (which is what i am doing) because internships actually are tailored for you to move around the company and get a sense of different departments while i am doing pre-event work (which i dont mind but i do enjoy the adrenaline of the build-up to the event and i wont actually be around for the event). i kind of feel like i am not 'progressing' to an internship because i am actually taking a step back to working in an ex-employer's whereas everyone else has managed to get somewhere beyond their past experience. even the places i applied for unpaid work experience in the UK didnt offer me a job because they are only looking for 1 or 2 people and i sadly fall short in some area to be selected. why why why?

but then again i get to work in a place with pretty good staff welfare (team lunches plus a pantry with a coffee machine... mmm...) and with people i am comfortable working with. hopefully something good will emerge. faith, right?

watching people graduate makes you feel like you want to get out to the world as well but yet gets you all nostalgic about idyllic university life. oh bother.